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Friday, January 26, 2018

New Year, New...Me?


Better late than never huh? Happy New Year to everyone that takes the time to read my blog! Sometimes I scroll through my blog archives and see the views on my posts and try to imagine who my readers are. I probably don't know half of you but you have no idea how privileged and grateful I am to get to share my faith journey with you! I don't get to say thank you as often as I should.  I started blogging, roughly, 7 years ago and if you've followed my writing since then, I'm sure you are able to get an idea of how much God has done in pruning this young woman.
I must confess, I have tried to turn this blog into many things- some have flowed from a desire to "take territories" for Christ, some from the misconception that calling often comes with glamour and other times I just get carried away by the seas of wanting a "ministry" of my own, inadvertently taking the glory that wasn't and never will be mine to claim. And then there's also the flip side- times when I feel inadequate and unworthy. I get plagued with questions like: "Is anyone even reading all of these?", "I fail all the time at even practicing half of these things I write about so why bother?", "Omg, I have put my life out there, I should just shut down this entire blog". Lol, yup. 

I have swayed to both sides of the spectrum, whether in false humility or outright pride but one thing I can say for sure- this blog has now become one of the many materials God uses to sanctify me. Usually I end every year thinking of what "big thing" I can do on the blog to get it noticed but this past year, God led me to not only pray: " He must become greater; I must become less" but also challenged me to expose areas of my life where I am saying the reverse. Not that there's anything wrong with making the blog better but to always revisit the whole goal of my writing in the first place: "To share my walk with Christ and the work of the cross in my personal life". So whether moyosmiles draws a thousand views or just one person, my prayer is for God to be Lord over my life; this blog inclusive of course. And for Him to do whatever He desires with the gift He gave me as I offer it back to Him.

"For who makes you different from anyone else? What do you have that you did not receive? And if you did receive it, why do you boast as though you did not?"- 1 Corinthians 4:7
Pride can be one of the most subtle sins to creep into one's life; and the craziest part? It can come in a costume tagged "humility" . We are all vulnerable to this and the best way to combat it is: "See yourself for who you really are and see your Savior for who He really is". I wrote down an excerpt from a book I'm currently reading (Discipline by Elisabeth Elliot)
"I am a clay pot. Very common; made out of stuff to be found in almost any stream and easily replaceable. What's in them is of much more interest than the pots themselves. This is what I am- common stuff, replaceable, but holding a priceless treasure-the life of Jesus"
Whatever gifts I am given, I receive with open palms and continuously ask for the grace to lift them back up to the one who graciously gives us good gifts. After all, I am only the clay pot and apart from Him I have no good thing in me ( Psalm 16:2).

Finally, I want to appreciate those who specifically reach out to me, either to correct me in love or to share their stories of God's hands reaching out to them through my posts. Oh I dare not take credit for any of it- it is a privilege, that the potter would choose a random clay pot to fetch with. Please don't stop reaching out, please don't stop correcting me and above all, please don't stop praying for the grace to continue to serve God with a glad and humble surrender through this blog and any other avenue He chooses.

Grace and Peace.

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